To say it has been a while since my last post is an understatement, and there are a few great reasons for this…first we gave up. Yep you heard that right, my amazing husband and I truly and totally gave up on the idea of having children. After 4 miscarriages, 2 failed fertility treatments, and countless days, months, and years of hoping that the stick would turn pink, we threw in the towel. Its not that we gave up on God or even the idea that God had an amazing plan for our lives, we just came to the conclusion that ultimately it was not up to us, and we needed to live our lives, to find the joy in the amazing gift we did have…our marriage.
Now this is when we get to the good stuff….
Like I said we decided to be happy just being married and we gave everything to God. – if you are going to give everything to God, please be ready to move, figuratively and literally.
Now that we got that warning out of the way I will continue. Sometime in the beginning of 2017 we got amazing news that resulted in my husband having to find a new job. I know most people wouldn’t say that is amazing; however, we really took this as a door opening, and the circumstances that led to this truly was wonderful news. Anyhow, we prayed, talked, and thought about what this might mean for our future, in a very hard decision I left my place of employment after nearly 3 years and decided to go back to the mortgage business, we didn’t know how quickly my husband would be able to find work. Well, he ended up getting this amazing job interview; however, it was about an hour and a half from where we live, and we were toying with the idea of moving, unbeknownst to us, God had an even better opportunity in mind. The day of this wonderful interview another guy contacted my husband and asked to meet him, and offered him the job on the spot; only problem, it was 3 hours south of where we lived. The job was more pay, excellent benefits, and he would be in middle management and I said “no”. I was not moving to South Florida in June non the less, and then God tugged at my heart as he does when he is guiding us.I agreed to go check out the area and next thing you know we are signing a lease at an apartment in Palm Beach County… The story gets better, like WAY better!
I ended up finding a job in the mortgage industry and getting to know my co-worker…she was such a blessing. My company sent me to New York for training in July…hold on to you seats, cause GOD IS SO GOOD. As I was leaving my first day of training I noticed my husband had been blowing up my phone…calls, texts, voice messages, I think if he knew how to send smoke signals he would have. Now just to give you some insight, my husband is very…VERY..laid back. He does not do this. He will call, maybe text, and then wait. Not this time. So of course I assumed the worse, someone was dead, he was dead, there was a major earthquake and all my family in California are at the bottom of the Pacific (my mind is a scary place when I let it worry). In a panic I called him back and the conversation went something like this….
Me: What’s wrong, who’s dead? Are you ok?
H: Babe, calm down! I’m fine, no one is dead that I know of….
Me: Uhhh then what is going on?
H: I just spoke to my cousin and he asked if we would be interested in adopting the twins.
Me: Uh, what? When? What? ARE YOU SERIOUS???
Obviously the conversation went a few rounds of me repeating are you serious, hubby saying, yes, me asking him to tell me every single word that was said. Because, well you know, stuff like this only happens to other people.
Hang in there…I will explain… but I want to give you some back story.
In April my husbands cousin had twin baby girls, we really were not all that close, but knew that she gave birth and wished her well. A month or so later we heard through our family that she wasn’t doing so well. I remember this night as if it were yesterday…a very nondescript night became an amazing part of our story. Hubby and I were sitting on the floor in our living room and off handily I said to him, “you know, if she needs someone to look after the girls I would do it…whatever they needed, I would step up.” He agreed and we went on our marry way.
As I said before, we had a lot going on after that point, finding a new home in a new place, leaving my safety net of my job, my work family, and finding a new place of work, and moving..YUCK.
When July came around, we had heard that the girls were living with their amazing grandma and once again the tugging in our hearts happened, so much so that my husband called his mom and told her that if his aunt needed someone to take care of the girls we were willing and we left it at that.
Sometimes in life things seem to get worse before they get better, this was the case in early July. Sadly my husbands aunts house caught on fire causing his aunt, uncle, and all the kids including the girls to move into a hotel. Strangely this happened the same day my husband called his mom. You say coincidence, I say God. And this leads us to the previously mentioned phone call in the middle of July….the call that changed our lives forever. Oh and in case you were wondering, my mother in law never had the right opportunity to tell my husbands aunt that we would take the girls…she named us all on her own.
After I got home from NY, we went to meet the girls and fell in love instantly! I knew I wanted to be a mom, but I never realized how big that hole in my heart was until these 2 perfect girls filled it. To say our lives have changed would be an understatement, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.
Fast forward to today….we have had the girls with us since the beginning of September, 8 months exactly as of yesterday, and we are in the process of adopting them…fingers crossed it will be finalized by the end of next month.
I promise to fill you all in on the joys and craziness of going from no kids to a family of 4 literally over night, but that will be for another day.
Just remember wherever you are on this crazy journey called life, God is with you! He has never left you and he does have an amazing plan for you. Trust me I KNOW life can be hard and feel like you are stumbling around in the darkness, but if you cling to the light, you will always find your way.
As always, thank you for reading my ramblings and following us on this crazy journey…
We FOUND our rainbow(s) and it is better than anything we could have ever dreamed.